No I haven't fallen off the wagon, as I am not really on a wagon. This isn't a fad, or a stage, this is my life. I eat well, train well, and also live well. We have had lots on, as we are planning a little second honeymoon at the end of this week, our first break ever where we are further then an hour from the kids. I am so excited, as I am love taking photo's, and I get to take photos of a very special couples day. SO its all very exciting.
What I wanted to talk to you about tonight is taking that first step. When I was 141kg, I was introduced to a Personal training studio, and my words to the trainer was "I don't think I could even walk through the doors?", as I had seen their clients. They were triathletes, and runners, if I went there everyone would look at me, and I could never compare myself to them. Well a week later, I walked through the doors. The next step was an outdoor group training session......scarey MARY! Thrust into the daylight, in a public park, beginning to run, or walk while others ran...an essential part of the journey I enjoyed training there for a few months.
Anything new is scarey. That first step can be petrifying. I wanted to share my thoughts pre-first session with Ian. I hadn't heard much of what a SIL training session would be like. 11 months after my first ever cross training when I was 141kg, joining SIL a few weeks ago I was 119kg. AS time ticked through the day I knew the hours were getting closer to that first session. My thoughts were I wonder what the other clients at the group training would be like? Would they be superfit, would I be last, would they talk to me. Then it continued I wonder what the session will be like, can I keep up, will there be alternatives. The list goes on. I am an expert at second guessing myself and fishing for an excuse.
Do I still get the feeling of anticipation nearly 4 weeks in? YES, but the difference is now I embrace it. Its like adrenalin. Its like POTLUCK... bit of Forrest Gump - Like a box of chocolates you never know what your up for. This unknown pushes me to work harder. Its no longer about comparing myself to others, its pushing myself to keep up & improve. Every opportunity that presents itself is an opportunity to learn more about myself, my body, and my abilities. If I didn't take the first step, I would never have the opportunity to learn what I am really capable of.
I say it constantly...... Do NOT compare yourself to others. There is no place for that in group classes, eating plans, facebook, on the street, at work, at play.... anywhere!!! Comparing leads to toxic thoughts, which lead to negativity..... truly this can then snowball to a whole lot of crap thinking. Crap thoughts, lead to crap habits, which lead to crap eating, which lead to crap results. This doesn't happen as often to me as it used to...... but it has!
How do I overcome it...... I beat that thought in my head, by stepping out, lifting, and making it happen. I believe in myself, and my achievements. You can achieve whatever you want, if you put your mind to it, and remain focused!
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