And then it all just stopped.......

When I began to write this blog, I said that it would be about honesty, about me and my journey.

I began writing this blog tonight asking the question WHY? Why haven't I lost weight yet.  People are so lovely, but the truth of the whole thing is I haven't lost any weight since July. It has fluctuated 1 or 2 kg up or down.  But truly no real difference.  The same thing happened at 145kg, 140kg, 130kg. and this time its decided to happen at 119kg.

The differences are: at all the previous weights before 119kg I was a smoker. Many people never knew. IT wasn't something I flaunted, infact some people will go WOW I never knew.  Then as if I had never smoked, one night I just gave them up.  It was something I had dreamed of for years.  It was due to my change in training, my want for better health, the hypocritic habit it had become. I had been having acupuncture & it might have helped to. So I have been smoke free since June 1 2012.

Of course since then my training has improved, I was pretty much bronchitis free, and my bank account has looked a little better, but my weightloss has stopped. It fluctuates as often as the Australian dollar. How do I know this because its my morning ritual.  Wake up to the alarm, head to the bathroom, stand on the scales, jump in the shower.  Sometimes its good, sometimes its bad, most of the time its pretty much the same.

Weighing yourself daily is like a cardinal sin in the weight loss world, so why do I continue to put myself through this daily ritual. It keeps me tracked, however at the moment I am perfectly tracked from 7am to 4pm. Come 4pm anything could happen. My saving grace is my training sessions.  That is probably why I have maintained my weight.  The training is balancing the food intake out. But what I really need to do is focus on tipping that balance beam.....to get back to basics.

So once again, tomorrow I will plan again, pack my lunch again, and continue on the  metabolic jumpstart program.  It is time that I just knuckle down again. No more excuses. When I am angry and grumpy, like I was earlier this afternoon, its that I am grumpy with myself.  The biggest thing I must not do is STOP.  Just keep moooving.........