Pain Killers, Pink and Piriformis

I am going to start with how I am really feeling, and then I am going to end in a few jokes, to show you that you should always look on the bright side of life.

Right now I would say just about over the entire back, muscle, hips, sciatica, piriformis syndrome, or whatever else you want to call it.  Quite literally its a pain in my arse HAHA! Its goes from my Hip, to my lower glute to the front of my thigh. As much as you don't like it Jac, pain relief was invented for a reason... USE IT! If you do not rest, it will not rest. Be 100% honest about your limitations.
Basically what I was doing, training, forgetting the pain, then wondering why getting out of bed & just driving the car hurt so much the next day, and the next. Then I would get a treatment to make it better, and then it would hurt from that, and then it would just get better, and I would train again.

So everyone has advice for me, and I love that, but I had to go back to my core. What I know, and what I want to do. Firstly, if it hurts...Don't.  Secondly, No you can't take pain killers and run in a fun run. ( I did the Pinkies Fun Run as Breast Cancer is such a cause close to my heart.  Loved being with my friends, but hated the agony of the days since.)   Thirdly, don't cover that what hurts with LIES. Reality check though: You have muscle/ nerve pain..... there is millions of others in the world a lot worse of then you... so shut up and get on with it.



Verdict: The GP says, actually take the pain killers for a week and then see how you feel. If your still in pain in a week, come and see me then.  Basically it needs time to HEAL. I have continued to work regardless of the pain, so I have to take it easy there too.

SO its all come full circle. Just when I got everything on the role, and happening another blocker arrives. So I can't fight it I just need to roll with it.

So NOW for your little giggle!

So being larger then the average bear, I have never really had baths since I was a kid. lol.  My Nan had the best bath. I am sure it was over 40 years old, deep iron bath.  She was on tank water so they were never really deep, but they were seriously the best baths.  So since losing 30kg I thought .... its 2pm, your day off, why not have a bath.  It was luxuriously beautiful, the water lovely, everything perfect. Till the time came to get out.

So I popped my hands on the side of the bath and tried to lift up. Nope no luck. Tried to grab the towel to grip on the side, Nup no luck.  So tried to roll over, nup no luck.  OK I say to myself....its all good, your fine, don't panic, yes you have to go pick up the kids now.........trust me I was laughing my butt off, and no I don't find retelling this embarrassing!

Finally I rolled over, got on my knees and stood up, like a gymnast finishing her greatest move...TA DAAAA she was up. 

Moral of this story:  It was lovely and comfortable in the water, and then things went slightly off course and not to plan.  If I had of given up there and then, I would be typing this blog for my current place of residence, my bath.  So I had to look for alternatives, and Ta Daaa I got out of the bath!

I guess what I am saying is: no matter what the adversity, belief in yourself can help you overcome it. I couldn't google it, I couldn't phone a friend (my phone wasn't in the bathroom), I had to knuckle down and work out how to get out of that bath myself, or stay there..

I will also tell you this piece of advice thanks to a fellow blogger: The next time someone compliments you just say "Thank-You"......

9 weeks

A few of you may know that every now and again the ol' back starts to give me some hurry curry.
So this always impacts on my training.  Its a lower back problem, caused by muscle spasms which lead to a little curvature of the spine.  I had acupuncture earlier this year, but it wasn't until I started seeing an Osteopath that I became pain free.  Then over the last few weeks it began with a twinge here, a twinge there, which lead to me having to have a break from running & vigorous cardio.  Gentle walking, a few weeks of treatment, and I will be good again in no time.  I also have to look after my back, as I have 0 sick leave hours, and need to work.

So Late last week I began to think... what can I do? My focus on food had been waning for a fair while.  I was still making OK choices, but my snacking was getting more and more out of control.  So with me having to take a break from training & the old habits creeping in ........... I wrote the open blogs... and then it was time to STOP!

My focus is set for the next 9 weeks. My reasons are as follows:

• First mini goal is to return to 1 session of Step Into Life - Labrador on Monday evening.

• 9 weeks? why 9 weeks - Thats my last term for my first contracted year as a Teacher Aide

• TO be the Mum I want to be with my kids over the XMAS holidays

• First work christmas function which I would like to wear a dress too. 

Breakfast - Poached Egg Smoked Salmon & Baby Spinach

The good thing about being back at work is it makes my nutrition easy for 4 days a week. I  stick to my meal plans, and am away from all temptations.  The other 3 days of the week, it comes down to focus, and remembering the reasons why I chose this in the first place.

Here is a blog of my meals today, I finished the day with a miso soup so I didnt take a pic.




My nutrition goals:

Quick Stop Runaway Bay - Skinny Cap n Cookie

•  To avoid over processed foods

• To eat a different Breakfast Daily
• Limit to one coffee a day - intake of up to and above 2 Litres a day.

I have been taught that to be able to have the focus on the nutrition, requires mindset.  Being strong in mind first, can help when situations arise where you may make a choice which will slow down your progress.

Home Lunch - Mushys 100g Chicken Baby Spinach

How do I work on my mindset.....
By listening, by learning, and by applying my technique which stems from the classroom -- "Stop, Look and Listen". In class we say that & the kids repeat it.  Its so much better then "Hey Guys" or "Oi listen up".

First word is STOP: take the time to STOP.  I have chosen this week to listen to Anthony Robbins on the way to work, instead of the morning radio shows.  In that half an hour it focuses me on my goals for the day, and teaches me to be grateful for what I have.

Hommus Capsicum Celery - Snack time :)     

LOOK:  Look at how far you have come.. but there is no roof in this journey.  Anthony Robbins says to have a Foreground, you must have a background. Look

LISTEN: Listen to your body.  Listen to your mind. Sometimes you need to just STOP, LOOK, and LISTEN.

So for now, I am Day 5.
I am not letting my back beat me, how?
By staying positive, and focusing my energy on the  awesome nutrition I have available to me!




 

The truth, the whole truth, and nothing but THE TRUTH!

The truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth.

So, I believe I have failed again.  I believe in my eyes that I have managed to let down my trainer, my friends, and my family.  All the thoughts that I have spent the last 12 months defeating have returned with vengeance. 



When I wrote my first blog on August 15th 2012, with all these wonderful goals, and visions of what I wanted to achieve, and here I am nearly 8 weeks later, and what have I achieved.... NOTHING. Zip, zilch, what I have achieved is demonstrating how much of a talker I am. That's right folks, you heard it here, ALL Talk! Slowly but surely the cracks have appeared, and I can tell you honestly, Jac isn't really that inspirational. 
Inspirational is the mother that gets up at 4am, and studies for 2 hours before beginning her day with 4 kids under 8, and working full time.  Inspirational is wheel chair bound person who learns to walk again after an accident, inspirational is the child that overcomes an illness, or disability to live there life to the fullest.  The mother that remains strong no matter what adversity she is faced with. The family who lose their Dad / Husband.  I don't fall anywhere into those categories. 

On the 3rd of May 2012, I weighed 120.5kg & on the 5 October 2012 I weigh 120.5kg.

So as much as I want to sit here and write to you about how CRAP that makes me feel, I know for a fact, that I am in control of this downward spiral. This is a prime example of old records of me playing.  The old me wants to say this: your a failure, your a loser, your a joke Jac.  You have done nothing in 5 months.  See, look at that weight. UNCHANGED! So you must have done nothing!!

Actually the person who knows better is me, if you understand that.  If I had done NOTHING over the last 5 months, I would not be the same weight, I would be well above that again.  If I had not cared over the last 5 months I would be back to not caring about moving my body. 

The old me sits here and thinks: Wow people must be so disappointed in me for not making more changes to my training and my body, for not looking better already..... OLD ME: Worries what other people think CONSTANTLY!

At the end of the day:

•  There is no magic pill that I seem to be constantly searching for. 
• This is no quick fix - its not a diet, its not an exercise plan, its a complete life overhaul wholistic approach
• Its not lose 30kg in 30 days, its regain your life & be the best you can be.
• FOR GOODNESS SAKE: STOP OVERTHINKING IT JACS!
• Stop adding pressure by trying to think what others are thinking, believe in yourself!

At the beginning of this blog I wrote that I had achieved nothing in 7 weeks, yeh OLD ME sing it..... NEW me (Stop second guessing yourself!!! - to quote a wise fellow!)  I learnt to that group exercise is fun, it can push you beyond limits. I do that at Step into Life, I enjoy the training sessions when I can fit it in.  Its hard with Allan working fulltime in Brisbane & the kids, but the one thing I am not doing is giving up!

Previously I would have given up & be content with this as my finale....when once again today is only the beginning.  I am not a contestant on the biggest loser, I am someone saving my life one day at a time. 

The old me would be working out how I can sneak in an afternoon nap, the new me is getting her boardies on to take the kids out to a water park, for the second day in a row! That is what counts, THAT is WHY I will continue on this journey. They are too young to have a lazy lounge lizard mother anymore!!